I just missed another opportunity

Few steps away, I saw these two girls sitting in front of the officer. One lady dressed in white uniform, while the other one in teal scrub suit. I observed for few seconds, and then I knew they where being interviewed already. And I was not yet ready. I am not prepared. All I know is I will only pass the resume and wait for their call. In that span of time, I know I already practiced my “Tell me something about yourself?" answer.

Interviews make my guts grumble. I don’t know. I walked out of the City Hall with guilt and regret.


2 years ago on 09/21/12 at 04:42pm

(via nurse-on-duty)


Have you ever met a guy, that you wanted so badly to be with, but he didn’t feel the same or you just never told him how you felt?

2 years ago on 08/25/12 at 09:22pm
via gwds

Day off dilemma

I don’t know where to start, but last night is an unusual event for me.

August 16 - day off

  • At home the whole day
  • 6pm - nag-tutor
  • 7pm - instead na pumunta ng Abucay, nagdecide na pumunta sa hospital to visit a friend
  • While at the hospital, I texted a friend that I really want to vent out something. And I only want her or my bestfriend to hear it.
  • 9:30pm - @McDonalds with Ate Peng. Yes! Reunited at last. Told her my dilemma about the cheezy stuff. She helped me a lot by just listening, although she gave me few advices.

  • 11:45pm - Went back to the hospital.
  • Met a guy who randomly helped my hospitalized friend buy stuff from the convenience store. Chatted. ;)

August 17

  • Asked the NOD to change my friend’s macro set due to leakage at the Y-port
  • Procedure done at 12:30am
  • I was hesistant to go home at that hour because I was wearing black shorts and a shirt. And since I was still wide awake, I decided to stay until morning.
  • Texted Ate Peng that I met this guy: cute, taller than me, medium body frame, wearing eyeglasses, religious, charitable, a teacher haha! He is also one of the reasons why I stayed that night.
  • Well, God is good. Assumera na ako kung assumera pero I like him. And maybe a blessing from God to end my depression that night. I’m ok na. Kahit di na siya sa akin magpakita pag balik ko mamaya :)
  • Stayed up until morning. Was not able to sleep. 2 orders of cold coffee from McDonalds kept me alert, alive, awake, enthusiastic (?)

  • Glad that my friend is coherent and oriented this morning. Prayers really work.
  • Left the hospital at 7am. Stayed at the Plaza de Mayor with Jeng. It was my first time to witness and appreciate the sunrise after the storm that stressed me out and which delayed my friend’s transfer in USTH.
  • Saw someone at the Plaza, limping. Guess his big toe still is the problem.
  • Walked home, took a bath (refreshing!), and now blogging. I’m sleepy, but I don’t want to sleep yet. I’m hungry but I just brushed my teeth.

I therefore conclude that I don’t like days off. CHOS! Mas nadedepress ako pag day off. Wala kasing iniisip, doon pumapasok yung kung anu-ano. Unlike pag may trabaho, focused ako sa duties and responsibilities ko. huhu!

Pwede na siguro akong matulog.

2 years ago on 08/17/12 at 08:26am

Oh! How I miss you Tumblr! :O

2 years ago on 08/15/12 at 10:25pm

Giving myself enough time to think if I’ll stay or leave my job. But I’m enjoying with all the paper works and assisting my workmates with patient care.

2 years ago on 08/11/12 at 09:59pm

I resigned yesterday. And they hired me again, today. -__-

Giving myself a month or two to find a new job.

2 years ago on 08/04/12 at 11:09pm
  • I am not happy with my job anymore.
  • No thrill!
  • I don’t like my new patient’s attitude. I can’t stand her.
  • Low salary, more workload.
  • Wala na talaga akong amor sa trabaho ko.

Kawawa lang yung unang patient ko, kasi kung siya lang, kaya namin. Walang problema. Di lang namin carry yung ugali ng asawa niya. We can’t stand her. Nawalan tuloy ng nurses si lolo. :(

2 years ago on 08/02/12 at 09:40pm

♪ ♫ Ayoko sana na ikaw ay mawala

Mawawasak lang ang aking mundo.♬ ♭

Inangkin namin ang videoke noong birthday celebration ni Lolo last July 21. May prize kasi lahat ng maka-100. Grabe! Halos maputol na litid ko wala pa ring 100. Obvious naman ding nage-enjoy si Chen at Shayne sa kinakanta ko e. :D

#personal  #photo  
2 years ago on 07/29/12 at 09:59am

Nage-enjoy ka naman sa pagP-PN (private nurse) mo, di ba?

Tanong sa akin ni Dea kanina. Napa-isip ako saglit.

Noong una, ok lang, pero boring. Walang thrill dahil routine lang na BP, meds, BP meds, tulong dito, tulong doon. Pero ngayon, medyo busy tapos naging on-call pa dahil darating na yung isang pasyente, medyo naguguluhan ako. Hindi na ako nage-enjoy. Ang hirap pa i-balance ang trabaho sa social life. Ang hirap maghanap ng way para maka-attend ng isang event. Buti na nga lang wala akong lovelife kundi wasak wasak. hay! Basta hindi na ako nage-enjoy. Ewan ko na lang sa bagong routine. huhuhu

Sa ngayon, nage-enjoy akong mag-sketch ng house plan ng bahay sa Pangasinan. Gusto nila ipagawa na mas maayos at mas malaki, at na-excite ako. hihi

2 years ago on 07/29/12 at 04:50am


I’m not complaining. I’m just TIRED.

Every other week ang duty ko. 3 days from Thursday to Saturday. But maybe tomorrow, start na ang new schedule namin. May night shift na. And mas mahirap na because madadagdagan kami ng patient- bedridden diabetic woman with dementia. I think I can do it. Kung yung iba nga na mas payat at maliit sa akin, kinaya, ako pa kaya. Ang hirap lang makipagusap sa ibang tao. Dapat boss ko lang sundin ko, but ewan. huhu! Ito ang isang disadvantage sa pagiging freelance nurse. Kahit day off or end na ng duty mo, parang nagduduty ka pa rin.

Siguro ngayon lang ito. Ngayon lang ako nai-stress dahil new environment kumbaga. Or let me say, new routine, new schedule.

Iniisip ko na lang, para sa akin din ito. Para rin sa learning ko.

2 years ago on 07/29/12 at 12:46am

Next level

In the next few days, me and my co-workers will have an increase in our workload and of course, our salary. But goodness, this is it! Step by step, day by day, we will learn. Patient with dementia, bedridden diabetic woman will be now part of my life and my experience.


Btw, I love my schedule. My co-nurses made it without consulting me if I have request days off.

Tuesday and Wednesday - days off (perfect because I volunteer in a clinic for the poor)

Thursday - day shift (yeah! one day of extreme workload)

Monday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday - night shift (zombie mode, perfect if I have gala in daytime. And I have 3pm Sunday service, so perfect sched all the way)

2 years ago on 07/27/12 at 10:56pm

My first time to plant rice along with my brother and cousins in Mabini, Pangasinan last Saturday. Maputik, madumi, pero masaya! Mas masaya sana kung marami kaming magpipinsan kaso was malulugi yung may-ari ng pinagtamnan namin. hehehe Wala kasi sa linya.

2 years ago on 07/25/12 at 04:51pm

I want to give my heart a break

Too many chances. Too many what ifs. Too many minutes wasted. Too many hopes. If I could only eliminate you in my life forever, I will. 

2 years ago on 07/16/12 at 02:34am

(via frazile)